a program is running
in the background of
what appears here
a program of
little affirmations
a code of yeses
the small yeses
hard at work, oui
I know this because
before the hard world
makes a woman
a woman, young & old
a condition exists
one
where belonging
rests upon its own
unbelonging in time
i discover about the age of
ten a way to earn a nickel when
finding in the gutter
some one else �s soda bottle
(& now i always find it guttered)
times are hard
ly larger than
the stretch of dollar
where it never fills a pan
a bowl, a want in wage
the size of family
forbidden in those years
a family planning |
and in those days a black
where i am much too
wee to question lack
the hold it has
& what it wants, oui
that house it
wants
this time
in no time
worked before the woman
the woman, young & old
and she turns a
principle of fixity untold
something still
and living
as if it died in walls each time
that it said yes, yet left
this nothing of itself behind
(and what it left is what re-mains)
remains (and I respect this dead)
because... the living wall
enclosing it round me, the eros
is like a great root-blossomer, a bee
a fountain adding wax to soften space
in times where once upon a knee
in me is bleached and blenched and
stone-bone fed
on triple beauty that in darkness bled
and bled and bled
strands in amethyst, a web |